Exposing yourself to reach acceptance? | #Grief #Process #MikaTheAngel

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Went thru ALL photos taken with this cellphone today, from February and onwards. The last months with Mika passing by in two hours. A truly exhaustive experience. But my belief is that this is needed to eventually and hopefully reach the final and last phase of the grief process – acceptance. As visiting the grave, daily. And now coming to “mostly daily”. Today added with Japanese Maple Leafs. Feeling that the grief process is catching up on us in one heavy and core aspect – deep exhaustion. So. Boosting and healing! Running yesterday. Kundalini Yoga at the studio tonighr! All…

Rules and Running | #Recovering

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Three hours to get my errand at the authorities straight enough, and story not over yet. Emphatic service woman who did all what could to call those handling the files, and she really had a deep understanding. She fought to keep her tears back. All thru the afternoon! Angel of the Day! And her name is Karin. Gotta be something special with that name … THANK YOU! All in all. The system that once was there to support us, is beyond fkkd up, and puts our whole fragile society at deep risk. Spare you the details. All will be ok…

MikaMix №1 Now Uploaded And In Private Mode Since 1430HRS Sharp | #MikaMix #MikaTheAngel #aBreathing

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Intention and outcome matched! My first in a lifelong series of MikaMixes now published in private mode! I am awaiting composers and artists approvals before going public with it. This day was in bliss, in the midst of all grief, of having it done. As I said at his grave at the Memorial Service and Bye Bye Ceremony – all I do will be dedicated to him, in order to keep his memory alive. Besides this, domestic services, together with getting groceries and commodities to our household – and visiting the grave, as usual – was done. Evening, in chill,…

Today: Rest & Recovery | #Photostory

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TV. Some admin. Outside twice, only around the corner for essential groceries. Burnt out by sorrow, refuelling. Got Memory Book from #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye and some confirmations on gifts to Blood Cancer Funds for research on Aplastic Anemia. Crying our hearts out! Programs watched – learning (brain on social, menstruation health and ups/downs with 5G), drama comedy (aussie health care, rural and urban), trailers on public service programs this fall (many goodies to come!), talk show, and news, news and news. Now: watching dreamscape in the dark behind eyelids! Tomorrow? Intent, Goal and Target: DAYTIME BLOGGING WITH PRODUCT SHARED! Blogged when…

Health Care – Sorrow – Friends | #MikaTheAngel #Health #GraveVisit

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We’re all humans, with all our imperfections, quirks, fallacies and beauty! ALL of us! We’re different, but we are equal in one dimension. All living beings carry an absolute value! So. It is so immensely unfair that Mika is gone. The one, LIVING this sentiment! He had no idea about “something different” beyond this. All were love. All are love. All is love! All else, is just “the dark side”, and nothing he ever experienced in full. He was bathing in an ocean of the infinity of The Love Force all thru his short life ‘here’. And now, he is…

Wendy In Memoriam – Playing Together With Mika, We Feelz | #WendyTheCat #MikaTheAngel #WMHD

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Today, passing by with a seven-year cycle, Wendy left us for #TheOtherworld (link to a photo from her last day in #Thisworld). Does humans meet Pure Light, and our other family members walking over the Rainbow Bridge? Trick question! Pure Light IS the Rainbow! All a matter of perspective, right? We lit our Memorial Candle in the kitchen today. And yes – the kitchen was my Sorrow Therapy Place of today. Music, re:claimed! After some two weeks off track totally, I lost even the Lullaby Blogging! So many things happening, and on my focused and disciplined to-do list, intention is…

A Day With Feeding The System | #Photostory

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One thing is to be drowned in an endless sea of sorrow. One other is to drown in all things to be done formally with the death of your kid. One third thing is the bureaucracy connected to my health and living situation. Took several hours of full focus today, Finally got the shite together! I’ll spare you the details … As a confirmation of ‘relief’: now the cold I got from my beloved went into full bloom! So. Sleeping it away! Good night!

A dramatic shift, from convulsions to relief – Mika IS with us! | #MikaTheHero

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Sunday Serenity. With three distinct mediated powers, we have got confirmed beyond all doubt that Mika is with us. 24. 7. 365! I spare all the details for now. And I also will return with his main messages. Separately. We shifted from a pain beyond measure from when he left ‘this’ world for ‘the other’, until last night with a mediated session on Mika’s call and initiative – hands on! – to a measurable sense of relief waking up this morning! THANK YOU MY BELOVED MIKA! So, with that feeling, sharing and caring also with Hedwig’s cousin Pia, coming by…

Living the grief – and finding the healing | #MikaTheHero #RIP

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Let the forest be our healer. In Grännäs, Valdemarsvik, at my mother-in-law Hedwig. Co-grief. Just took a forest therapy walk, and an evening tea after that. Now in bed. We will be here until Wednesday. Photos from back and front view from the house, “Hedwigsborg” – Castle of Hedwig. Sleep, holy sleep, come! And let Mika come through in my dreams tonight to hear him say he is ok! We survived – barely – the first night without Mika. Sleep came to us against all odds, in rounds of three. Mantras help! Yesterday every single breath was a victory against…