We had the third meeting with a group of parents loosing their kids today. We debriefed moments of death and funeral. Tough. Painful. Exhaustive. Necessary. Life goes on.
Many years ago we bought a second hand bunk bed with built in desk. Many things have been created there during the years from Nadine and Mika. And many nights of sleep spent by Nadine. But now, it’s history. It’s going to be replaced with a new bed and a separate desk. It was very hurtful to take it apart IKEA style, and give it to the buyers/new owners. A part of the painful process to phase out all stuffs related to Mika.
One installation of Norrköping Light Festival captured by Karin, when out on a short walk. Feeling much sadness. TV day.
Began this morning with listening to the first album of 2020 – with Laleh: “Postcards”. Mika had his favourite song, with Laleh – “Bara få va mig själv”. So, a good way to start my musical year!
Closing The Books Of 2019 – The Worst Year Of My Life | #MikaTheHero #MikaTheAngel #NadineTheHeroine #HOPEFUL2020
This year we lost our little love boy Mika. The worst that can happen in your life, happened. Losing your kid. At the same time we touched heaven in February, when he was declared well from the heart deficit he suffered from. So, all in all, he was well for a few months of his four year long life, our #MikaTheHero! We who are still here, we are still being there for each other, and I will continue to be the best father I can be for Nadine! Family and friends, I love you. Let the Love Force live strong…
Mika’s place was visited by some friends this xmas. Hanna with family, giving a dog. And Pia with family, coming with a small xmas tree. Thank you!
Mika The Bear Hero. And Mika The Angel is in The Otherworld Hope to see you some night in my dreams! Why not tonight?
We survived first Xmas without Mika, together. Now, back from Valdemarsvik. Thank you Hedwig!
We lit an angelic candle for Mika today at 3pm. We miss you so much! Barely survived the first Christmas Eve without him. Fighting to get life going on.
Spending Xmas with Jippii, Hedwig and the cats.
I guess it comes as a reaction to upcoming Christmas, but suffer strong sorrow attacks these days. Today was awful. I miss you so damn much, Mika! Life is not the same with you here. Guess we just have to suffer thru, and let life go on in one direction or another.
More than two weeks off. Of reasons. I did an inventory on dates to fill in with retrospective blogging. I want every day of the year reflected in retrospect, where I did not do the Lullaby Blogging. There is something special with daily blogging. A journal, leaving memories where they are. Fragments of life, where the little can express much. Image and text. And also an exercise in writing, creating, discipline and focus! I need it! So, with that said – beginning tomorrow! Aiming to cover all the gaps before closing the book of 2019 – the most Lovely and…