A Heart As The Bird Phoenix | #MikaTheAngel

When we had our Mika Memorial and Bye Bye the 29th of August, Grandma Hedwig ended the ceremony with a baloon rising up in the air, with signatures on a photo of Mika from all of us attending. The Funeral Bureau had two extra baloons, just in case, and we got one of them home. It has been high up in our living room ever since. The other day I wondered when the helium would leave enough for it to sink. It happened yesterday! Mika, we felt, played around with it for a while, up … down … aside ……

How Not To Be Able To Blog In Full … | #MikaTheAngel #MikaMemorial #Preschool #TheMikaTree

This posting is back-dated. The date is only there to connect the content to the day and night (Swedish: ‘Dygn’), that the content of the posting is related to. I authored this as a lullaby posting the night after. 5th of September, 2019, we had a Mika Memorial at his pre-school. I am not at all mature to grasp the full of the event, since it was as hard as it could be. The magnitude of the feeling in a sense was stronger than on the Memorial one week before. The “main one”, with Mika’s remains going down the “feet…

Tomorrow – Sowing The Seeds Of Love | #MikaTheAngel #Love #AdInfinitum

We cleared the field today – for some green grass to grow. We fight every day – to get deep into our existence that he is not ‘here’, but ‘there’. And visiting this place – DAILY! – will help us out! I am off the hook until Jan 31, 2020, to have and be given space to do so. We all grieve in our own way. There is no manual for that. So, in order to find that ‘way’, still putting trust into ‘the system’ that we will get space for that! Formally. On sick leave. As intermittent worker, supporting…

A day of emotional hangover, relief and recovery | #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye

Day after the Ceremony. We are so happy with the fantastic Love Bomb yesterday. It was magic! Thanks, once again! Bengt Johannisson attended breakfast, and followed us to the grave. Joined there, also Hanna, her daughter Luna and her mom Carina. Such beautiful flowers! Waving Bengt goodbye, then all afternoon on a speedy walkabout, making errands all over the place! Ending night with “Kristallen”, the Swedish counterpart to The Emmy Awards. With that said – good night!

INFINITE LOVE AND GRATITUDE TO ALL WHO ATTENDED IN PLACE OR IN SPIRITUAL REMOTE! | #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye #MikaTheHero

All went beyond the envisioned, and we felt that Mika was truly happy and excited with the Ceremony. Restaurant beyond. And then reception at home for the closest circle. As said – THANK YOU ALL! NO ONE MENTIONED – NO ONE FORGOTTEN! Pics and vids incoming and getting collected. Full story to come! Now. Exhausted! Good Night!

Open Chest | #MikaTheHero #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye

Last time seeing the remains of our beloved Mika. Nadine and Senada was with us. Will give special attention to all the stuff he got with him – later … All worth a separate story! Screamed my heart out. And Karin’s tears … Heartbreaking! And Nadine took the courage and power too. Senada in tears too, and in strong support to Nadine. The priest and the representative from the bureau did/had done an excellent job with the showing at S:t Olof Chapel. On our way out, Mika showed himself in profile among the clouds! Bye Bye Mika! See you tomorrow!…

Monday – Worst Week Since It Happened … | #MikaGrief #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye

The Ceremony on Thursday. All the big pieces in the puzzle are set. Now, checking guest lists tomorrow, to inform the Bureau! And the program went to print in Valdemarsvik, on courtesy of Hedwig, who has poured down her soul to it! A great piece of work! THANK YOU! I also spoke to Nadine twice, in the afternoon and in the evening, then also to mummy Senada. They arrive tomorrow late night, Nadine sleeps here, Senada at a hotel downtown. Thursday night they leave for Stockholm, before heading home to Eidsvoll in Norway. The Brain Poion of Cortisol is hammering…

Sunday Sushi – Thank You Hanna And Erik! | #MikaMemorial #Countdown #Friends

True friendship lasts forever. Hanna and I met some two decades ago. Thinking about her alot after life took its turns, and his Erik and their kid, and not having direct contact for some years now. Showing up very fast by phone beyond Mika left us for #TheOtherworld. Now. Giving us home delivery food on demand these hectic preparation days! Sushi. Could live on that on a lone island, with my dearest beloved Karin for the rest of my life, methinks … Hai! Thank you Hanna and Erik! Ok. Now dealing with Night Pain and MikaMissing … See you when…

A Day In Speed And Doing Focus | #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye #Preparations

Making days intentionally long and heavy-loaded with stuff to do, so when this moment arrives – sleep hours – that thing comes almost by pure exhaustion. Because – the nights are SO DAMNED TOUGH! So, with a sleeping train coming – this day is summarized by the tagged headline. Keeping it short, light and rough. And this day remembered through the photo cloud archive, on demand, futurewise. But, most probably, next time seeing the photos through a timehop app, and wondering how on Earth we managed to survive this first year ‘beyond’. Since – right now! – the constant feeling…

Mika Memorial And Bye Bye – Now On Facebook Event | #MikaTheHero #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye

A tough day. Slowed down a bit, and emotional back-log hit us. I was screaming my lungs and soul out in the mattress where he used to sleep. Downloaded a bunch of Google Images and did some screenshots of Instagram on tag #MikaTheHero. 45 min’s of triggering. But I trigger even more on music … We had a nice and fruitful soul supporting talk with the priest today, as well. And last, but not least. Did manage to get together a Facebook Event as well. A mirroring of Karin’s event in Swedish. Repeating the plea for financial support – 0708…

Cerefie Byrge – The Singing Voice On The Ceremony | #MikaTheHero #MikaMemorial #Music

Program. Work in progress. We had a strong flow session where Cerefie was at our Casa for the first time. I’ve known her something like ten Earth Rounds Around The Sun. Earlier lives excluded … Full Cerefie Story unfolding. She’s now preparing the music together with a team she’s about to synch with. In the mean time. Check her indie acts Tonarvet (legacy), and her current act Televote! Norrköping Music with High Spirit! And Cerefie Byrge has the Power to Channel the Spirit of Mika. Me just feel it!