Five birthday photos. Four with Mika alive. What was intended as a tradition, was broken. My annual birthday photo with my kids. And, with Mika in The Otherworld, and with Nadine home in Norway due to covid-19 restrictions, this had to be the way instead. My kids, framed. Mika as a four year old from June 6, 2019, and Nadine when she was five from Spring 2012. It was a great day anyways, eating at a restaurant a meal with three small dishes, and afterwards going to the Carl Johan Park for an ice-cream! Thank you Karin!
Our Hero, born 10.19, May 28, 2015, turning Angel 11.34, Aug 1, 2019, was honoured today. We went to the grave and added some flowers – one rose for Nadine, Karin and me, respectively – and new oil lights. Then we went home and had cake and lit the five year candle, with the five year baloon in the air. Hedwig and Jippii was here today as well, and we watched the photos from the Mika memorial and bye-bye. A big check box ticked, in this painful work that sorrow gives us. Moving on. Mika – I <3 U 4EVAH!
Many years ago we bought a second hand bunk bed with built in desk. Many things have been created there during the years from Nadine and Mika. And many nights of sleep spent by Nadine. But now, it’s history. It’s going to be replaced with a new bed and a separate desk. It was very hurtful to take it apart IKEA style, and give it to the buyers/new owners. A part of the painful process to phase out all stuffs related to Mika.
My daughter is now a teenager! We had a chat around her birth time 1441CET, as we traditionally have. I am so proud of you! I love you so much! Hope to see you again soon!
When Nadine was here the other week, she made these Moshi. So good! And a great way to celebrate my 1st Kyu in Aikido from yesterday, with this great lovely Japanese treat!
A Day Of Life and Death – And Learning To Find A Home In Your Alienation | #MikaTheHero #MikaTheAngel
Waking up to meet a very very very very very challenging day. Going to bed and feeling that life goes on. And on. And on! I love life! So be it! To grasp the content and nature of this day – right now, I can not. Check @akrogirl stories on an app focused on instant life sharing, some hours ahead. Making alot of remixes of an Alien Emoji felt like a great Lullaby Meditation. The crescendo of the remixes made, was finalized by Nadine, big sister to #MikaTheAngel … and yes, he is now flowing in #TheOtherworld … ….the One…
First time since Mika Memorial and Bye Bye, Nadine spends the weekend here in her Norrköping Home. After a journey that began 0220AM, after a great afternoon in Oslo and some geeky shop visits, we just arrived! LOVELY to have you here, Nadine! Sleep on a bus was almost a no-go, so bed is calling in some very few moments!
INFINITE LOVE AND GRATITUDE TO ALL WHO ATTENDED IN PLACE OR IN SPIRITUAL REMOTE! | #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye #MikaTheHero
All went beyond the envisioned, and we felt that Mika was truly happy and excited with the Ceremony. Restaurant beyond. And then reception at home for the closest circle. As said – THANK YOU ALL! NO ONE MENTIONED – NO ONE FORGOTTEN! Pics and vids incoming and getting collected. Full story to come! Now. Exhausted! Good Night!
Last time seeing the remains of our beloved Mika. Nadine and Senada was with us. Will give special attention to all the stuff he got with him – later … All worth a separate story! Screamed my heart out. And Karin’s tears … Heartbreaking! And Nadine took the courage and power too. Senada in tears too, and in strong support to Nadine. The priest and the representative from the bureau did/had done an excellent job with the showing at S:t Olof Chapel. On our way out, Mika showed himself in profile among the clouds! Bye Bye Mika! See you tomorrow!…
Working our asses off today. In order not to be totally devoured by the #MikaMissing, we decided to go full on and clean a cornerstone of our temple – the sofa corner! Haven’t been done in years thoroughly. Shitloads of #MikaMemories. What to keep? What to throw away? Now, week three of grief has begun. Keeping strong. Doing heavy lifting. Literally. And cleaning out our love corner for a renewed flow of ‘what to come’. His presence – as always! – felt … Full on! Universe is bigger than we can think! But here is our spot for R&R, for…
A Silent Sunday – First Weekend, First Full Day, With Only Karin, Me, Soto, Uchi and Deshi – and Mika in The OtherWorld | #MikaTheHero #GriefWeek2 #STAYSTAYSTAY
Pain. Love. Going on. KEEPING ON! mikathehero-aug11-2018-oneyearago Be with us!