My 54th Birthday | #Birthday #Me

Five birthday photos. Four with Mika alive. What was intended as a tradition, was broken. My annual birthday photo with my kids. And, with Mika in The Otherworld, and with Nadine home in Norway due to covid-19 restrictions, this had to be the way instead. My kids, framed. Mika as a four year old from June 6, 2019, and Nadine when she was five from Spring 2012. It was a great day anyways, eating at a restaurant a meal with three small dishes, and afterwards going to the Carl Johan Park for an ice-cream! Thank you Karin!

Mika’s Birthday – Should Have Turned 5 Years Today | #MikaTheHero #MikaTheAngel #Mika5years

Our Hero, born 10.19, May 28, 2015, turning Angel 11.34, Aug 1, 2019, was honoured today. We went to the grave and added some flowers – one rose for Nadine, Karin and me, respectively – and new oil lights. Then we went home and had cake and lit the five year candle, with the five year baloon in the air. Hedwig and Jippii was here today as well, and we watched the photos from the Mika memorial and bye-bye. A big check box ticked, in this painful work that sorrow gives us. Moving on. Mika – I <3 U 4EVAH!

Bye Bye Bunkbed | #NadineTheHeroine #MikaTheHero

Many years ago we bought a second hand bunk bed with built in desk. Many things have been created there during the years from Nadine and Mika. And many nights of sleep spent by Nadine. But now, it’s history. It’s going to be replaced with a new bed and a separate desk. It was very hurtful to take it apart IKEA style, and give it to the buyers/new owners. A part of the painful process to phase out all stuffs related to Mika.

Closing The Books Of 2019 – The Worst Year Of My Life | #MikaTheHero #MikaTheAngel #NadineTheHeroine #HOPEFUL2020

This year we lost our little love boy Mika. The worst that can happen in your life, happened. Losing your kid. At the same time we touched heaven in February, when he was declared well from the heart deficit he suffered from. So, all in all, he was well for a few months of his four year long life, our #MikaTheHero! We who are still here, we are still being there for each other, and I will continue to be the best father I can be for Nadine! Family and friends, I love you. Let the Love Force live strong…

Father’s Day 2019 – Love And Emptiness | #NadineTheHeroine #MikaTheHero #MikaTheAngel

Nadine and me. Mika and me. … and all three of us together! The Birthday Photo. Mika. I miss you like crazy. Nadine. See you soon again. Mika. Nadine. I love you forever! And yes. Soto. Uchi. Deshi. Thank you for supporting us in our grief and emptiness! I love you too!

Nadine At The Grave – With A Painted Mika Cat | #NadineTheHeroine #MikaTheAngel #GraveVisit

Today, after a day downtown, we wwnt to the grave. Nadine had got a cat you could paint yourself – and, yay! – what talent she has! Rainbow ears and green glitterish. So beautiful an well done! After putting the cat and lightning a candle in it, she made a smiley out of autumn leaves. Tomorrow, going home. A very nice weekend to have Nadine here! I love you so much!

A Day Of Life and Death – And Learning To Find A Home In Your Alienation | #MikaTheHero #MikaTheAngel

Waking up to meet a very very very very very challenging day. Going to bed and feeling that life goes on. And on. And on! I love life! So be it! To grasp the content and nature of this day – right now, I can not. Check @akrogirl stories on an app focused on instant life sharing, some hours ahead. Making alot of remixes of an Alien Emoji felt like a great Lullaby Meditation. The crescendo of the remixes made, was finalized by Nadine, big sister to #MikaTheAngel … and yes, he is now flowing in #TheOtherworld … ….the One…

Nadine Here! | #NadineTheHeroine

First time since Mika Memorial and Bye Bye, Nadine spends the weekend here in her Norrköping Home. After a journey that began 0220AM, after a great afternoon in Oslo and some geeky shop visits, we just arrived! LOVELY to have you here, Nadine! Sleep on a bus was almost a no-go, so bed is calling in some very few moments!