Mika’s Birthday – Should Have Turned 5 Years Today | #MikaTheHero #MikaTheAngel #Mika5years

Our Hero, born 10.19, May 28, 2015, turning Angel 11.34, Aug 1, 2019, was honoured today. We went to the grave and added some flowers – one rose for Nadine, Karin and me, respectively – and new oil lights. Then we went home and had cake and lit the five year candle, with the five year baloon in the air. Hedwig and Jippii was here today as well, and we watched the photos from the Mika memorial and bye-bye. A big check box ticked, in this painful work that sorrow gives us. Moving on. Mika – I <3 U 4EVAH!

Closing The Books Of 2019 – The Worst Year Of My Life | #MikaTheHero #MikaTheAngel #NadineTheHeroine #HOPEFUL2020

This year we lost our little love boy Mika. The worst that can happen in your life, happened. Losing your kid. At the same time we touched heaven in February, when he was declared well from the heart deficit he suffered from. So, all in all, he was well for a few months of his four year long life, our #MikaTheHero! We who are still here, we are still being there for each other, and I will continue to be the best father I can be for Nadine! Family and friends, I love you. Let the Love Force live strong…

Soto Five Years – Hooray Hooray Hooray Hooray! | #SotoTheCat #Birthday

Our Guardian Cat On-Top-Our-Herd-Hierarchy Soto (born/register name Pinkalicius’ Pralin, Holy Birman) turns five years today! Two photo stories getting Soto in a Nutshell! First – drinking water. Then! What moves? Another cat! Bam! Gone into the dark! Who is in the Kitchen? Next, also from bedtime – literally! When I’ve done my teeth brushing and other go-to-bed preparations, entering bedroom. Soto with a sharp eye on me! Then – when we have found to be still and calm for a while. Enter middle! But leaning on Mother Karin, since Birmans usually lean on loyalty towards one in the first place….

Visiting The Grave With Hedwig and Jippii | #MikaTheAngel

Today we had a visit of my mother-in-law Hedwig, with her Eurasier dog Jippii. The grief was very very strong today, when we came together. The heavy dark cloud was very dense, and on our shoulders. Felt really really hard. But good thing to share tears, and somewhere mobilizing the slightest of hope that we will survive this – together. Thank you for a fine day, with shared feelings and a great dinner. Love will push us through. Life just has to go on – as the way the grass is growing on the grave. Strong!   Note: This posting…

Where The Remains Of Mika Will Land | #MikaTheHero #FamilyGrave #BEBEBE

  Here. August 29. 12.00. North Chapel. North Graveyard. Matteus Congregation. Norrköping. The World. Universe. #Thisworld. Invitation to #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye commencing in rounds, during the days to come. Announcement in Norrkpings Tidningar tomrrow. Love be with us. Mika be with us. Be with us. Be. Be! BE! WITH US!

Melancholy – Serenity – Soft Tears – Music – Fika – Roadtrip | #GriefCamp

Firstly: I have faded out much of my FB responses towards the LoveFlood Tsunami of condolences some days now, in order to catch up and calm down. As overwhelming and explosive as the shockwave in itself, your LoveFlow has been – and is! – something that makes ALL the difference. Keep ’em coming! Send a heart! We feel it! We see you! Fading in, today, was a narrowing down, and only keep focus on the closest circle, with soft chat, and rest. Silence. Music, music, music. Waking up with a breakfast feeling of melancholy, with the infinite missing of his…