Closing The Books Of 2019 – The Worst Year Of My Life | #MikaTheHero #MikaTheAngel #NadineTheHeroine #HOPEFUL2020

This year we lost our little love boy Mika. The worst that can happen in your life, happened. Losing your kid. At the same time we touched heaven in February, when he was declared well from the heart deficit he suffered from. So, all in all, he was well for a few months of his four year long life, our #MikaTheHero! We who are still here, we are still being there for each other, and I will continue to be the best father I can be for Nadine! Family and friends, I love you. Let the Love Force live strong…

MikaMix №1 Now Uploaded And In Private Mode Since 1430HRS Sharp | #MikaMix #MikaTheAngel #aBreathing

Intention and outcome matched! My first in a lifelong series of MikaMixes now published in private mode! I am awaiting composers and artists approvals before going public with it. This day was in bliss, in the midst of all grief, of having it done. As I said at his grave at the Memorial Service and Bye Bye Ceremony – all I do will be dedicated to him, in order to keep his memory alive. Besides this, domestic services, together with getting groceries and commodities to our household – and visiting the grave, as usual – was done. Evening, in chill,…

Visiting The Grave With Hedwig and Jippii | #MikaTheAngel

Today we had a visit of my mother-in-law Hedwig, with her Eurasier dog Jippii. The grief was very very strong today, when we came together. The heavy dark cloud was very dense, and on our shoulders. Felt really really hard. But good thing to share tears, and somewhere mobilizing the slightest of hope that we will survive this – together. Thank you for a fine day, with shared feelings and a great dinner. Love will push us through. Life just has to go on – as the way the grass is growing on the grave. Strong!   Note: This posting…

Day After Mika Memorial Pre-School – Flower, Grave Visit, Lunch and Karin To Valdemarsvik | #MikaTheAngel #FoodExperiences #Dayflow

6th of September, 2019. Another day with Mika in #TheOtherworld. Will never “get used to it”, but hope to “find a stable way to live with it”. I had forgot the bouquet of flowers that Mika’s beloved friend Ellen had for us at the pre-school memorial, so I went back early morning. Finding it at the shrine where the photo used to be, I could not find another thing to do, than to let it be! So beautiful. Then, the daily grave visit. Beyond, we spoilt us with a really nice lunch from an authentic and local café. Really great!…

INFINITE LOVE AND GRATITUDE TO ALL WHO ATTENDED IN PLACE OR IN SPIRITUAL REMOTE! | #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye #MikaTheHero

All went beyond the envisioned, and we felt that Mika was truly happy and excited with the Ceremony. Restaurant beyond. And then reception at home for the closest circle. As said – THANK YOU ALL! NO ONE MENTIONED – NO ONE FORGOTTEN! Pics and vids incoming and getting collected. Full story to come! Now. Exhausted! Good Night!

Monday – Worst Week Since It Happened … | #MikaGrief #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye

The Ceremony on Thursday. All the big pieces in the puzzle are set. Now, checking guest lists tomorrow, to inform the Bureau! And the program went to print in Valdemarsvik, on courtesy of Hedwig, who has poured down her soul to it! A great piece of work! THANK YOU! I also spoke to Nadine twice, in the afternoon and in the evening, then also to mummy Senada. They arrive tomorrow late night, Nadine sleeps here, Senada at a hotel downtown. Thursday night they leave for Stockholm, before heading home to Eidsvoll in Norway. The Brain Poion of Cortisol is hammering…