A Day In Speed And Doing Focus | #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye #Preparations

Making days intentionally long and heavy-loaded with stuff to do, so when this moment arrives – sleep hours – that thing comes almost by pure exhaustion. Because – the nights are SO DAMNED TOUGH! So, with a sleeping train coming – this day is summarized by the tagged headline. Keeping it short, light and rough. And this day remembered through the photo cloud archive, on demand, futurewise. But, most probably, next time seeing the photos through a timehop app, and wondering how on Earth we managed to survive this first year ‘beyond’. Since – right now! – the constant feeling…

Project Family? An Oxymoron? Maybe … | #MikaLove #MikaMissing #MikaReunion

Illustration … A pic saying more than a thousand words. Cleaning. Making order in chaos. Walking. First with Karin. Then alone. Picking up a bunch of books from Uni Library. Making food of prefab stuff, three sources, mixed. TV, with flashbacks from Danish Nursing History as key show – besides news and a cute docu of a Norwegian senior from far up north going to London. Chamomile tea with honey and milk. Taking care of cat litter. Getting them food and fresh water for their night. In bed. Blogging. About some key events through the day. Soto, Karin and me…

Mika Memorial And Bye Bye – Now On Facebook Event | #MikaTheHero #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye

A tough day. Slowed down a bit, and emotional back-log hit us. I was screaming my lungs and soul out in the mattress where he used to sleep. Downloaded a bunch of Google Images and did some screenshots of Instagram on tag #MikaTheHero. 45 min’s of triggering. But I trigger even more on music … We had a nice and fruitful soul supporting talk with the priest today, as well. And last, but not least. Did manage to get together a Facebook Event as well. A mirroring of Karin’s event in Swedish. Repeating the plea for financial support – 0708…

The pre-school shrine | #MikaTheHero

Early morning walk to the pre-school, Nektarinen. I promised myself I would go to his intended school start for the season. Met some personell again, and especially the dedicated teacher who would be our contact person. I sat down at the shrine they made for the kids to sorrow. One of the kids is a truly cuddly love-bomb, and she sat down in my lap where I sat in front of the shrine. She asked; “Is Mika dead?”, and I explained as good as I could, and what he died from. Truly heartbreaking! They will have the memorial moment planting…

Mika Memorial And Bye-Bye Announced Today | #MikaTheHero #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye

Publically announced today. Mika Memorial and Bye Bye Ceremony, 29th of August 2019 in Norra Kapellet/North Chapel – Norra Kyrkogården/North Graveyard, Matteus Congregation, Norrköping. All who feel the calling are welcome. Swedish Facebook event is there. English mirroring of event will be published. Today we met the wonderful and for us sent priest Lisa Linderoth, who also took care of the Funeral of Karin’s daddy and Mika’s grandpa Hans, 2010. She remembered that. The outline of the ceremony is set. Afterwards we met with Mika’s godmother Hanna with family, and had a debriefing Fika alone with Hanna. Such a great…

Where The Remains Of Mika Will Land | #MikaTheHero #FamilyGrave #BEBEBE

  Here. August 29. 12.00. North Chapel. North Graveyard. Matteus Congregation. Norrköping. The World. Universe. #Thisworld. Invitation to #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye commencing in rounds, during the days to come. Announcement in Norrkpings Tidningar tomrrow. Love be with us. Mika be with us. Be with us. Be. Be! BE! WITH US!

Coping In Blue And Green | #MikaTheHero #GriefWeek2 #HOLDHOLDHOLD

Today we had a closure and debriefing with Mika’s child psychologist. An extremely tough session, pouring our heart out. She will follow up beyond the funeral – the truly critical part, as known. Help us out to make our days filled with meaningful activities, Mika, our peers both ‘there’ and ‘here’. Keeping our old rhythm and flow of days, food, sleep, walk and some news watching. Night time worst, but using techniques to “take me down”. Chamomile Tea with milk and honey. Banana. Kundalini meditation. Breathe in. Breathe out. Closing another day. HOLDING ON!

To do’s to keep you going | #MikaTheHero #GriefWeek2 #KEEPKEEPKEEP

Night time here. After a day with stuff happening, the darkness and emptiness is like mental terror. Coping, coping, coping! Phonecalls. The child psychologist. Memorial Service and Funeral related stuff. Library to turn back his last loan and tell what happened to two of the key personell there at the desk. A state of shock, transferred every time. One other at our local grocery store talking about it. THE THING THAT SHOULD NOT HAPPEN! We went to the Worker’s Museum, meeting a close friend who will take a central part of the musical part of the ceremony who were with…

Melancholy – Serenity – Soft Tears – Music – Fika – Roadtrip | #GriefCamp

Firstly: I have faded out much of my FB responses towards the LoveFlood Tsunami of condolences some days now, in order to catch up and calm down. As overwhelming and explosive as the shockwave in itself, your LoveFlow has been – and is! – something that makes ALL the difference. Keep ’em coming! Send a heart! We feel it! We see you! Fading in, today, was a narrowing down, and only keep focus on the closest circle, with soft chat, and rest. Silence. Music, music, music. Waking up with a breakfast feeling of melancholy, with the infinite missing of his…

Living the grief – and finding the healing | #MikaTheHero #RIP

Let the forest be our healer. In Grännäs, Valdemarsvik, at my mother-in-law Hedwig. Co-grief. Just took a forest therapy walk, and an evening tea after that. Now in bed. We will be here until Wednesday. Photos from back and front view from the house, “Hedwigsborg” – Castle of Hedwig. Sleep, holy sleep, come! And let Mika come through in my dreams tonight to hear him say he is ok! We survived – barely – the first night without Mika. Sleep came to us against all odds, in rounds of three. Mantras help! Yesterday every single breath was a victory against…