Mika’s place was visited by some friends this xmas. Hanna with family, giving a dog. And Pia with family, coming with a small xmas tree. Thank you!
Yesterday it came into place – our family headstone. I had a strong peak in sorrow pain today. Getting so manifested … We are satisfied with the stone. Pink/black/grey tiger stripey, made of what is called Hallandia. Two bronze birds – one looking down, one looking up. Minimalist text. ABRAHAMSSON. Mika.
We visited the grave, Nov 26. It turned out to be the last time with the temporary iron cross with his name. Dark is the sorrow. Green is the hope. Grass growing. Life changing. A day with one of the most tired and exhausted feelings in a very long time. Hence, retrospective blogging.
With greetings from all over Sweden, placing oil candles on Mika’s Grave.
Today, after a day downtown, we wwnt to the grave. Nadine had got a cat you could paint yourself – and, yay! – what talent she has! Rainbow ears and green glitterish. So beautiful an well done! After putting the cat and lightning a candle in it, she made a smiley out of autumn leaves. Tomorrow, going home. A very nice weekend to have Nadine here! I love you so much!
Walking. Visiting the grave. Calm and nice. Great dinner! Thank you for a nice day! Good night!
Went thru ALL photos taken with this cellphone today, from February and onwards. The last months with Mika passing by in two hours. A truly exhaustive experience. But my belief is that this is needed to eventually and hopefully reach the final and last phase of the grief process – acceptance. As visiting the grave, daily. And now coming to “mostly daily”. Today added with Japanese Maple Leafs. Feeling that the grief process is catching up on us in one heavy and core aspect – deep exhaustion. So. Boosting and healing! Running yesterday. Kundalini Yoga at the studio tonighr! All…
We’re all humans, with all our imperfections, quirks, fallacies and beauty! ALL of us! We’re different, but we are equal in one dimension. All living beings carry an absolute value! So. It is so immensely unfair that Mika is gone. The one, LIVING this sentiment! He had no idea about “something different” beyond this. All were love. All are love. All is love! All else, is just “the dark side”, and nothing he ever experienced in full. He was bathing in an ocean of the infinity of The Love Force all thru his short life ‘here’. And now, he is…
And two standing beside it. Grieving.