Visiting The Grave With Hedwig and Jippii | #MikaTheAngel

Today we had a visit of my mother-in-law Hedwig, with her Eurasier dog Jippii. The grief was very very strong today, when we came together. The heavy dark cloud was very dense, and on our shoulders. Felt really really hard. But good thing to share tears, and somewhere mobilizing the slightest of hope that we will survive this – together. Thank you for a fine day, with shared feelings and a great dinner. Love will push us through. Life just has to go on – as the way the grass is growing on the grave. Strong!   Note: This posting…

Updating My LinkedIn Profile | #ProfileUpdate2019

This cuts through all existential contexts. Professional. Personal. Private. How to place the words on what my life situation is, related to the so-called professional networks? Well, I went on with a project today, that was put on hold this Spring – the profile update project. Of a hunch, I just started to update my LinkedIn profile today. And some hours later, it was there! Here are some mobile screenshots of the full summary of ‘me’, in the professional context. On sick leave, yes. In grief. “Current occupation”. Yes, the hardest work of all, unpaid, 24/7/365 – with the greatest…

Mika Memorial – Open Air! | #MikaMemorial #OpenAir

We are in the planning to have an Open Air event for those who could not attend the Memorial Services and Bye Bye Ceremony. It will be a publice event, and we had to apply to the local police force for a permit. That was handed over today, and here is the sketching on where and when that went with it as attach! When event final outline and practicalities are settled, and event published, I will write more! Sept 29. Sunday. 3pm to 8pm!   Note: This posting done in retrospect, due to a week with fever and cold.

Order Placed Of The Headstone / Tombstone | #MikaTheAngel #Retrospective

September 17, 2019. After some twists and turns, the order finally was placed! With the signature, I walked in the heavy showers with the paper document. Strange thing with the meeting of the traditional and the contemporary – a paper that I had in my canvas hip bag in its envelope, was found a bit wet after the showers … But managed to get it delivered anyways. Something as fragile as paper in the water, will lead to a stone lasting for decades ahead. Our Family Headstone / Tombstone. Things did not turn out as it should. It was not…

Feeding The Ducks | #Slideshow

A Very Intense Sunday! Demo and tryout of Aikido and Judo for functionally varied/deficit (used to be called ‘handicapped’/’disabled’ … Thank universe we moved on beyond that!} – A K A SUPERHEROES! A fair with some 20 sports and activities represented! A full story to be saved for the emergent social web flow of the club … IF DOJO NORRKÖPING! in process! To be kicked off when my space is given! Was intended to be kicked off this Fall, but, well, you know … Afterwards a LOOONG and WONDERFUL evening walk my beloved. Visiting the grave. And feeding the ducks…

Grass Is Growing! | #MikaTheAngel #GraveVisit

So great to see that the seeds of love flourish in green! A visit of a debriefing nature with Peter at the funeral bureau today. A good talk! He has been, and is, so great and warm-hearted. He said that taking care of Mika had made a far more and deeper impact than usual, that he will take with him for the rest of his life. Not a single day passing by without thinking of him! A rough night before, with some three hours sleep and insomnia comedy TV, now having greater hope of getting sleep here and now! Good…

Animal Speak – A Tiger Cat | #MikaTheAngel #Cats #Love

Monday, Sept. 9. A visit with Karin to see her doctor, main event. And, that’s her story. We survived. That too. A bit tired on only thinking and living ‘survival’. We wants to LIVE and PROSPER! Later. On my way to Monday Aikido. A cat – reminding us on exactly that: “How To Survive, Live and Prosper in the Flow Society?” When life strikes you with the hardest of the hardest of the Steel Baseball Bats – count to ten. Then rise! Even if it takes three rounds around the sun to count to ten … Meow!!! Mika is with…

Sunday – In Retrospective Remix … | #MikaTheAngel #SerenitySunday #VirtualVisit

Photo taken on Sunday, Sept 8. Virtual visit to the grave for two – one in place. Photo published, retrospectively. With a remix. Mika Style! You draw conclusions. If you carry ‘fact resistence’, mosey along. Look elsewhere. If you are ‘curious’ and interested in ‘fringe science’ with a ‘wide-open mind, heart, soul and spirit’ – feel warmly welcome! Love is all around, you see. Embrace! I love you, Mika. (In #TheOtherworld) I love you, Karin. (In Hedwigsborg, Grännäs, Valdemarsvik) I love you, Melanthie. (In Larnaca, Cyprus) And, I love me. (In North Graveyard, Norrköping) Love is the Hero! Love is…

A Day In Freedom – Or What To Say? | #DayFlow #Walking #MikaTheAngel

In summary. Saturday. Sept 7, 2019. Intention in Everyday Notes. Sky. Mika? Grave. Sunflowers. And more! Shadow. Profile. Grass. Prison. Closed. Open. For The Public. Me. Outside. Sky. Sun. Mika? Me. Inside. Sky! Stream. Dreams. Brochure. Program. At Prison. Events. Culture! A song. A cat. Home. Resting. Day end. Sharing a wall note from prison. How to fill a day with meaning. Without Mika here. But … There! Being with us, you are. Miss you like crazy. __ Note: Another backdated journalling note. Reaching same day-blogging … Very soon! Hai!

Day After Mika Memorial Pre-School – Flower, Grave Visit, Lunch and Karin To Valdemarsvik | #MikaTheAngel #FoodExperiences #Dayflow

6th of September, 2019. Another day with Mika in #TheOtherworld. Will never “get used to it”, but hope to “find a stable way to live with it”. I had forgot the bouquet of flowers that Mika’s beloved friend Ellen had for us at the pre-school memorial, so I went back early morning. Finding it at the shrine where the photo used to be, I could not find another thing to do, than to let it be! So beautiful. Then, the daily grave visit. Beyond, we spoilt us with a really nice lunch from an authentic and local café. Really great!…

How Not To Be Able To Blog In Full … | #MikaTheAngel #MikaMemorial #Preschool #TheMikaTree

This posting is back-dated. The date is only there to connect the content to the day and night (Swedish: ‘Dygn’), that the content of the posting is related to. I authored this as a lullaby posting the night after. 5th of September, 2019, we had a Mika Memorial at his pre-school. I am not at all mature to grasp the full of the event, since it was as hard as it could be. The magnitude of the feeling in a sense was stronger than on the Memorial one week before. The “main one”, with Mika’s remains going down the “feet…

Tomorrow – Sowing The Seeds Of Love | #MikaTheAngel #Love #AdInfinitum

We cleared the field today – for some green grass to grow. We fight every day – to get deep into our existence that he is not ‘here’, but ‘there’. And visiting this place – DAILY! – will help us out! I am off the hook until Jan 31, 2020, to have and be given space to do so. We all grieve in our own way. There is no manual for that. So, in order to find that ‘way’, still putting trust into ‘the system’ that we will get space for that! Formally. On sick leave. As intermittent worker, supporting…