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Dandelion Found – And Added To The Flourishing At Mika’s Grave | #Flowers #MikaTheAngel #Meaning
On my way to the Sorrow Counselling at the Kiddie Clinic Vrinnevi today, I found two Dandelions still Alive and Kicking! I took the liberty to take one of them with me to the psychologist (and psychotherapist in-the-making) – she’s great! The Dandelion holds strong symbolic power. Turning to a source; “The Dandelion means: Healing from emotional pain and physical injury alike. Intelligence, especially in an emotional and spiritual sense. The warmth and power of the rising sun. Surviving through all challenges and difficulties.” No further comments needed. Pain that you did not survive, Mika. Power given to us to…
A Day With Hedwig And Jippii | #Family
Walking. Visiting the grave. Calm and nice. Great dinner! Thank you for a nice day! Good night!
Walking – Doing – Buying | #Everydayness
I love walking or running, to do errands. Two loops today. Last leg with bus. Soundtrack: Depeche Mode Bootleg Remixes. Not found in new vinyl. Pizza. Homemade. Tonight! Well deserved Friday Chill after another tough and hard grieving week. One thing not traced in our lifelogging quantification. Life. Move. On!
Exposing yourself to reach acceptance? | #Grief #Process #MikaTheAngel
Went thru ALL photos taken with this cellphone today, from February and onwards. The last months with Mika passing by in two hours. A truly exhaustive experience. But my belief is that this is needed to eventually and hopefully reach the final and last phase of the grief process – acceptance. As visiting the grave, daily. And now coming to “mostly daily”. Today added with Japanese Maple Leafs. Feeling that the grief process is catching up on us in one heavy and core aspect – deep exhaustion. So. Boosting and healing! Running yesterday. Kundalini Yoga at the studio tonighr! All…
Rules and Running | #Recovering
Three hours to get my errand at the authorities straight enough, and story not over yet. Emphatic service woman who did all what could to call those handling the files, and she really had a deep understanding. She fought to keep her tears back. All thru the afternoon! Angel of the Day! And her name is Karin. Gotta be something special with that name … THANK YOU! All in all. The system that once was there to support us, is beyond fkkd up, and puts our whole fragile society at deep risk. Spare you the details. All will be ok…
MikaMix №1 Now Uploaded And In Private Mode Since 1430HRS Sharp | #MikaMix #MikaTheAngel #aBreathing
Intention and outcome matched! My first in a lifelong series of MikaMixes now published in private mode! I am awaiting composers and artists approvals before going public with it. This day was in bliss, in the midst of all grief, of having it done. As I said at his grave at the Memorial Service and Bye Bye Ceremony – all I do will be dedicated to him, in order to keep his memory alive. Besides this, domestic services, together with getting groceries and commodities to our household – and visiting the grave, as usual – was done. Evening, in chill,…
Today: Rest & Recovery | #Photostory
TV. Some admin. Outside twice, only around the corner for essential groceries. Burnt out by sorrow, refuelling. Got Memory Book from #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye and some confirmations on gifts to Blood Cancer Funds for research on Aplastic Anemia. Crying our hearts out! Programs watched – learning (brain on social, menstruation health and ups/downs with 5G), drama comedy (aussie health care, rural and urban), trailers on public service programs this fall (many goodies to come!), talk show, and news, news and news. Now: watching dreamscape in the dark behind eyelids! Tomorrow? Intent, Goal and Target: DAYTIME BLOGGING WITH PRODUCT SHARED! Blogged when…
The Sun Shone Today As Well | #Photolog
And so, it will, in an estimated five billion orbits around it, from where we are. Now, adding a full weekend of events, in need of special attention, where the balance in between experiencing and storytelling is explored in my slow pace during my Sorrow Work. Where delimitations comes natural, and are given respect. Thinking aloud – I have had an inner dialogue of writing up more stuff beyond this Lullaby Journalling, when coming to stuff I love to do – and then share! The “daytime” sharing. So, with the ethos of “doing stuff that brings me joy”, I am…
Health Care – Sorrow – Friends | #MikaTheAngel #Health #GraveVisit
We’re all humans, with all our imperfections, quirks, fallacies and beauty! ALL of us! We’re different, but we are equal in one dimension. All living beings carry an absolute value! So. It is so immensely unfair that Mika is gone. The one, LIVING this sentiment! He had no idea about “something different” beyond this. All were love. All are love. All is love! All else, is just “the dark side”, and nothing he ever experienced in full. He was bathing in an ocean of the infinity of The Love Force all thru his short life ‘here’. And now, he is…
Mika Memorial and Bye Bye – Open Air – Countdown! | #MikaMemorial #OpenAir
A screenshot from the countdown, added with some details! A week from now! Cerefie, who sang on the first memorial services, will return – this time with Arvid on cello, interpreting Laleh with five songs. And some pre-recorded mixes from all my five artist aliases, for an open air event in Lejongropen (“the Lion’s Pit”), Folkparken, Norrköping – next Sunday, at 3pm to 8pm!
Green – Blue – Light | #Photolog
Feeling lost. Where to go? What life are we given? Without Mika? I dunno. Resting, in that feeling. Love. Soothe my soul! I can’t stand another second in this pain! Or. Well. I just have to.