I love walking or running, to do errands. Two loops today. Last leg with bus. Soundtrack: Depeche Mode Bootleg Remixes. Not found in new vinyl. Pizza. Homemade. Tonight! Well deserved Friday Chill after another tough and hard grieving week. One thing not traced in our lifelogging quantification. Life. Move. On!
Went thru ALL photos taken with this cellphone today, from February and onwards. The last months with Mika passing by in two hours. A truly exhaustive experience. But my belief is that this is needed to eventually and hopefully reach the final and last phase of the grief process – acceptance. As visiting the grave, daily. And now coming to “mostly daily”. Today added with Japanese Maple Leafs. Feeling that the grief process is catching up on us in one heavy and core aspect – deep exhaustion. So. Boosting and healing! Running yesterday. Kundalini Yoga at the studio tonighr! All…
Three hours to get my errand at the authorities straight enough, and story not over yet. Emphatic service woman who did all what could to call those handling the files, and she really had a deep understanding. She fought to keep her tears back. All thru the afternoon! Angel of the Day! And her name is Karin. Gotta be something special with that name … THANK YOU! All in all. The system that once was there to support us, is beyond fkkd up, and puts our whole fragile society at deep risk. Spare you the details. All will be ok…
Intention and outcome matched! My first in a lifelong series of MikaMixes now published in private mode! I am awaiting composers and artists approvals before going public with it. This day was in bliss, in the midst of all grief, of having it done. As I said at his grave at the Memorial Service and Bye Bye Ceremony – all I do will be dedicated to him, in order to keep his memory alive. Besides this, domestic services, together with getting groceries and commodities to our household – and visiting the grave, as usual – was done. Evening, in chill,…
TV. Some admin. Outside twice, only around the corner for essential groceries. Burnt out by sorrow, refuelling. Got Memory Book from #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye and some confirmations on gifts to Blood Cancer Funds for research on Aplastic Anemia. Crying our hearts out! Programs watched – learning (brain on social, menstruation health and ups/downs with 5G), drama comedy (aussie health care, rural and urban), trailers on public service programs this fall (many goodies to come!), talk show, and news, news and news. Now: watching dreamscape in the dark behind eyelids! Tomorrow? Intent, Goal and Target: DAYTIME BLOGGING WITH PRODUCT SHARED! Blogged when…
And so, it will, in an estimated five billion orbits around it, from where we are. Now, adding a full weekend of events, in need of special attention, where the balance in between experiencing and storytelling is explored in my slow pace during my Sorrow Work. Where delimitations comes natural, and are given respect. Thinking aloud – I have had an inner dialogue of writing up more stuff beyond this Lullaby Journalling, when coming to stuff I love to do – and then share! The “daytime” sharing. So, with the ethos of “doing stuff that brings me joy”, I am…
We’re all humans, with all our imperfections, quirks, fallacies and beauty! ALL of us! We’re different, but we are equal in one dimension. All living beings carry an absolute value! So. It is so immensely unfair that Mika is gone. The one, LIVING this sentiment! He had no idea about “something different” beyond this. All were love. All are love. All is love! All else, is just “the dark side”, and nothing he ever experienced in full. He was bathing in an ocean of the infinity of The Love Force all thru his short life ‘here’. And now, he is…
Today, passing by with a seven-year cycle, Wendy left us for #TheOtherworld (link to a photo from her last day in #Thisworld). Does humans meet Pure Light, and our other family members walking over the Rainbow Bridge? Trick question! Pure Light IS the Rainbow! All a matter of perspective, right? We lit our Memorial Candle in the kitchen today. And yes – the kitchen was my Sorrow Therapy Place of today. Music, re:claimed! After some two weeks off track totally, I lost even the Lullaby Blogging! So many things happening, and on my focused and disciplined to-do list, intention is…
And two standing beside it. Grieving.
We had a little memorial for Mika, in the open at Folkparken, Norrköping. We also visited the grave.