— So, eight years ago, a little wonderboy was born. And now, he’s gone. Our little wonderboy! How you survive such stuff? Don’t ask. We just do. I’ve restored my power to create and joy of life. But when the pain hits, it hits like hell. Not staying that long as it used to. And memories of joy can be restored. With melancholy. Yes, reaching far in the tough work called “sorrow”. In my multi-traumatic life, surviving PTSD and living with back and forth with anxiety to levels of the unbearable sometimes, I have fully returned to pursue and…
Bengt Johannisson with his beloved dog Winnie (as in Winnie-The-Pooh), at his since-seventies-premise in Braås, outside Växjö, Småland, Kronobergs County, Sweden, Scandinavia, The Nordicas, Europe, Tellus, The Solar System of Ours, The Milky Way, Galactic Local Group, in an Endless Universe of Love // original publishing: In Braås, with Bengt | #Workshop A Love Declaration—Not In Words, But In Mjuuuuusic? To be come! “Sometimes – if not ANY time! – it is impossible to express emotions in words. So, beyond the words, where are we? In infinity. As with what “True Friendship” means. Well – you know it, when you…
Today we gave honour to Mika, one year after he left us for The Otherworld. We took a fika at his grave. Added a bouquet, and opened a “Kinderägg Surprajs” as he used to say. A little elephant! A symbol as such – the wise elephant with the strong memory. Always remembering our little boy! An elephant was also on the shirt he had when he passed away. Coming home, we got a message from our medium that he wanted ice cream, meringue and chocolate, and some balloons. So be it! Here is the last image of him conscious. His…
Our Hero, born 10.19, May 28, 2015, turning Angel 11.34, Aug 1, 2019, was honoured today. We went to the grave and added some flowers – one rose for Nadine, Karin and me, respectively – and new oil lights. Then we went home and had cake and lit the five year candle, with the five year baloon in the air. Hedwig and Jippii was here today as well, and we watched the photos from the Mika memorial and bye-bye. A big check box ticked, in this painful work that sorrow gives us. Moving on. Mika – I <3 U 4EVAH!
At 11.34, 1st of August, Mika left us here in this world, for the other world. Eternally loved – Always missed. Photo from February 2019, the first one I took with this cellphone. And the grave from today. I love you Mika. See you again when my time comes. Take care in between, our little angel!
Added today – a shelf to store stuff in the kitchen. The cat scratch tower moved to our bedroom.
In the sofa.
Many years ago we bought a second hand bunk bed with built in desk. Many things have been created there during the years from Nadine and Mika. And many nights of sleep spent by Nadine. But now, it’s history. It’s going to be replaced with a new bed and a separate desk. It was very hurtful to take it apart IKEA style, and give it to the buyers/new owners. A part of the painful process to phase out all stuffs related to Mika.
In the sofa. Photo by Karin.
Depressed. So sad. Low energy. Hope for spirit lift. Soon.
Began this morning with listening to the first album of 2020 – with Laleh: “Postcards”. Mika had his favourite song, with Laleh – “Bara få va mig själv”. So, a good way to start my musical year!
Mika The Bear Hero. And Mika The Angel is in The Otherworld Hope to see you some night in my dreams! Why not tonight?