A Day In Freedom – Or What To Say? | #DayFlow #Walking #MikaTheAngel

In summary. Saturday. Sept 7, 2019. Intention in Everyday Notes. Sky. Mika? Grave. Sunflowers. And more! Shadow. Profile. Grass. Prison. Closed. Open. For The Public. Me. Outside. Sky. Sun. Mika? Me. Inside. Sky! Stream. Dreams. Brochure. Program. At Prison. Events. Culture! A song. A cat. Home. Resting. Day end. Sharing a wall note from prison. How to fill a day with meaning. Without Mika here. But … There! Being with us, you are. Miss you like crazy. __ Note: Another backdated journalling note. Reaching same day-blogging … Very soon! Hai!

Day After Mika Memorial Pre-School – Flower, Grave Visit, Lunch and Karin To Valdemarsvik | #MikaTheAngel #FoodExperiences #Dayflow

6th of September, 2019. Another day with Mika in #TheOtherworld. Will never “get used to it”, but hope to “find a stable way to live with it”. I had forgot the bouquet of flowers that Mika’s beloved friend Ellen had for us at the pre-school memorial, so I went back early morning. Finding it at the shrine where the photo used to be, I could not find another thing to do, than to let it be! So beautiful. Then, the daily grave visit. Beyond, we spoilt us with a really nice lunch from an authentic and local café. Really great!…

How Not To Be Able To Blog In Full … | #MikaTheAngel #MikaMemorial #Preschool #TheMikaTree

This posting is back-dated. The date is only there to connect the content to the day and night (Swedish: ‘Dygn’), that the content of the posting is related to. I authored this as a lullaby posting the night after. 5th of September, 2019, we had a Mika Memorial at his pre-school. I am not at all mature to grasp the full of the event, since it was as hard as it could be. The magnitude of the feeling in a sense was stronger than on the Memorial one week before. The “main one”, with Mika’s remains going down the “feet…

Tomorrow – Sowing The Seeds Of Love | #MikaTheAngel #Love #AdInfinitum

We cleared the field today – for some green grass to grow. We fight every day – to get deep into our existence that he is not ‘here’, but ‘there’. And visiting this place – DAILY! – will help us out! I am off the hook until Jan 31, 2020, to have and be given space to do so. We all grieve in our own way. There is no manual for that. So, in order to find that ‘way’, still putting trust into ‘the system’ that we will get space for that! Formally. On sick leave. As intermittent worker, supporting…

Let Us Introduce To You – Mika The Angel! | #MikaTheAngel

As pointed out before – he did not want to be called a hero. In a taoistic manner – the true leader does not calls himself a leader. Same with heroism, me guess! When Bowie speaks about being heroes just for one day, I say that all living, everywhere, are heroes in their own right and way! We are all love! And love is the true hero! Yes? But ok – I hope he feels more comfortable with what we truly feels what he is. Our Angel! The Guardian Kind! So – with that said – Let us introduce: #MIKATHEANGEL…

Cleanup of the grave – first round | #MikaTheAngel #GriefYearOne #InProgress

Today, a new name came to me of our beloved one: #MikaTheAngel! He never wanted to be named a hero: “I am Mika!” – yes, humble and strong he was – and is! Our guardian angel is there, and talking to him every day when visiting his grave at our daily Zenith Walk. Summer officially over, and flowers in decay. They will spread grass seeds on Thursday morning, preparing for that. Life goes on. Fika in Serenity afterwards Aikido ended the night. Keeping my shite together. Still physically quite exhausted by the grieving work, but catching up. Mentally, in some…

A day of emotional hangover, relief and recovery | #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye

Day after the Ceremony. We are so happy with the fantastic Love Bomb yesterday. It was magic! Thanks, once again! Bengt Johannisson attended breakfast, and followed us to the grave. Joined there, also Hanna, her daughter Luna and her mom Carina. Such beautiful flowers! Waving Bengt goodbye, then all afternoon on a speedy walkabout, making errands all over the place! Ending night with “Kristallen”, the Swedish counterpart to The Emmy Awards. With that said – good night!

INFINITE LOVE AND GRATITUDE TO ALL WHO ATTENDED IN PLACE OR IN SPIRITUAL REMOTE! | #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye #MikaTheHero

All went beyond the envisioned, and we felt that Mika was truly happy and excited with the Ceremony. Restaurant beyond. And then reception at home for the closest circle. As said – THANK YOU ALL! NO ONE MENTIONED – NO ONE FORGOTTEN! Pics and vids incoming and getting collected. Full story to come! Now. Exhausted! Good Night!

Open Chest | #MikaTheHero #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye

Last time seeing the remains of our beloved Mika. Nadine and Senada was with us. Will give special attention to all the stuff he got with him – later … All worth a separate story! Screamed my heart out. And Karin’s tears … Heartbreaking! And Nadine took the courage and power too. Senada in tears too, and in strong support to Nadine. The priest and the representative from the bureau did/had done an excellent job with the showing at S:t Olof Chapel. On our way out, Mika showed himself in profile among the clouds! Bye Bye Mika! See you tomorrow!…

Monday – Worst Week Since It Happened … | #MikaGrief #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye

The Ceremony on Thursday. All the big pieces in the puzzle are set. Now, checking guest lists tomorrow, to inform the Bureau! And the program went to print in Valdemarsvik, on courtesy of Hedwig, who has poured down her soul to it! A great piece of work! THANK YOU! I also spoke to Nadine twice, in the afternoon and in the evening, then also to mummy Senada. They arrive tomorrow late night, Nadine sleeps here, Senada at a hotel downtown. Thursday night they leave for Stockholm, before heading home to Eidsvoll in Norway. The Brain Poion of Cortisol is hammering…