A tough day. Slowed down a bit, and emotional back-log hit us. I was screaming my lungs and soul out in the mattress where he used to sleep. Downloaded a bunch of Google Images and did some screenshots of Instagram on tag #MikaTheHero. 45 min’s of triggering. But I trigger even more on music … We had a nice and fruitful soul supporting talk with the priest today, as well. And last, but not least. Did manage to get together a Facebook Event as well. A mirroring of Karin’s event in Swedish. Repeating the plea for financial support – 0708…
Cerefie Byrge – The Singing Voice On The Ceremony | #MikaTheHero #MikaMemorial #Music
Program. Work in progress. We had a strong flow session where Cerefie was at our Casa for the first time. I’ve known her something like ten Earth Rounds Around The Sun. Earlier lives excluded … Full Cerefie Story unfolding. She’s now preparing the music together with a team she’s about to synch with. In the mean time. Check her indie acts Tonarvet (legacy), and her current act Televote! Norrköping Music with High Spirit! And Cerefie Byrge has the Power to Channel the Spirit of Mika. Me just feel it!
The pre-school shrine | #MikaTheHero
Early morning walk to the pre-school, Nektarinen. I promised myself I would go to his intended school start for the season. Met some personell again, and especially the dedicated teacher who would be our contact person. I sat down at the shrine they made for the kids to sorrow. One of the kids is a truly cuddly love-bomb, and she sat down in my lap where I sat in front of the shrine. She asked; “Is Mika dead?”, and I explained as good as I could, and what he died from. Truly heartbreaking! They will have the memorial moment planting…
Mika’s Death Announced Today At St. Matthew’s Church, Norrköping, Today – And A Plea For Help | #MikaTheHero #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye
We went to the church today, for the services. For the record – my religious ‘belief’ has been stated at that blue-white empire beginning with an F (“the Book of Faces” …?) since I joined: IN EMERGENCE. No essays about that, here and now. To the point – The priest nailed it in the sermon today, what could be a description of our lives right now. To thrive in chaos, and to just go on. Crash, and to get back. Now, beyond the greatest loss and pain ever felt, we are also economically totally on the edge. With the ceremony…
Mika Memorial And Bye-Bye Announced Today | #MikaTheHero #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye
Publically announced today. Mika Memorial and Bye Bye Ceremony, 29th of August 2019 in Norra Kapellet/North Chapel – Norra Kyrkogården/North Graveyard, Matteus Congregation, Norrköping. All who feel the calling are welcome. Swedish Facebook event is there. English mirroring of event will be published. Today we met the wonderful and for us sent priest Lisa Linderoth, who also took care of the Funeral of Karin’s daddy and Mika’s grandpa Hans, 2010. She remembered that. The outline of the ceremony is set. Afterwards we met with Mika’s godmother Hanna with family, and had a debriefing Fika alone with Hanna. Such a great…
Where The Remains Of Mika Will Land | #MikaTheHero #FamilyGrave #BEBEBE
Here. August 29. 12.00. North Chapel. North Graveyard. Matteus Congregation. Norrköping. The World. Universe. #Thisworld. Invitation to #MikaMemorial #MikaByeBye commencing in rounds, during the days to come. Announcement in Norrkpings Tidningar tomrrow. Love be with us. Mika be with us. Be with us. Be. Be! BE! WITH US!
Sofa Project – Before And After | #MikaSpirit #Everydayness #DODODO
Working our asses off today. In order not to be totally devoured by the #MikaMissing, we decided to go full on and clean a cornerstone of our temple – the sofa corner! Haven’t been done in years thoroughly. Shitloads of #MikaMemories. What to keep? What to throw away? Now, week three of grief has begun. Keeping strong. Doing heavy lifting. Literally. And cleaning out our love corner for a renewed flow of ‘what to come’. His presence – as always! – felt … Full on! Universe is bigger than we can think! But here is our spot for R&R, for…
Coping In Blue And Green | #MikaTheHero #GriefWeek2 #HOLDHOLDHOLD
Today we had a closure and debriefing with Mika’s child psychologist. An extremely tough session, pouring our heart out. She will follow up beyond the funeral – the truly critical part, as known. Help us out to make our days filled with meaningful activities, Mika, our peers both ‘there’ and ‘here’. Keeping our old rhythm and flow of days, food, sleep, walk and some news watching. Night time worst, but using techniques to “take me down”. Chamomile Tea with milk and honey. Banana. Kundalini meditation. Breathe in. Breathe out. Closing another day. HOLDING ON!
Mediwalking | #GriefWeek2 #MikaTheHero #MOVEMOVEMOVE
Meditation. Soundtracked by Faithless – Reverence. Magic. Healing. Åbackarna. Nwe Parkour training ground. Sharing Aikido Spirit, they are. Mika loves #TheOtherworldParkour, mefeels! Tombstone meeting, first loop. Went well. Long process. 10 weeks delivery from Fixation of the Future Archeological Material, now only Imagined. Felt Mika’s presence – ad always! Good night!
To do’s to keep you going | #MikaTheHero #GriefWeek2 #KEEPKEEPKEEP
Night time here. After a day with stuff happening, the darkness and emptiness is like mental terror. Coping, coping, coping! Phonecalls. The child psychologist. Memorial Service and Funeral related stuff. Library to turn back his last loan and tell what happened to two of the key personell there at the desk. A state of shock, transferred every time. One other at our local grocery store talking about it. THE THING THAT SHOULD NOT HAPPEN! We went to the Worker’s Museum, meeting a close friend who will take a central part of the musical part of the ceremony who were with…
A Silent Sunday – First Weekend, First Full Day, With Only Karin, Me, Soto, Uchi and Deshi – and Mika in The OtherWorld | #MikaTheHero #GriefWeek2 #STAYSTAYSTAY
Pain. Love. Going on. KEEPING ON! mikathehero-aug11-2018-oneyearago Be with us!
Anxiety and emptiness, friends and a run | #MikaGrief
Today, we had a day of a catch-up, and an emotional back-log hit us. Really really feeling the emptiness and missing! So painful. Good thing Anna Öst came for a Grief Fika, and Linn Bengtsson coming in the night. Linn and us watched the session with the medium from last Saturday. So powerful! I also ran, breaking the 10km/One hour barrier again!