A day of chill, visiting the windy beach. And then going back home! On my way home, I visited one of our former aikidokas, who moved to Kalmar to study. Nice to be home, and reunite with my Karin and the cats! Thank you, Thomas family for a great distraction in my hard sorrow work, to spend some really great days in Öland! If you want a great vacation, be sure to go to Pensionat Grankullavik in Northern Öland!
I spent all day out on the run and walk, mostly off grid since the power went off on my mobile. In the night, I got a really great pizza made by a great baker! A nice evening. Later that night, Johan’s Karin also arrived, with their daughter and friends.
Woke up with a nice view over the bay Grankullavik! In the afternoon we went out to Trollskogen, where we had a run. Nice surroundings! You also could see the lighthouse Långe Erik, Ölands Norra Udde. In the evening, the former owner stopped by, and we had a drink. Then, I realized something big! I have been here before! At a field school travel in my ninth grade at the age of 15, we were here with three classes from my high school! And in synch, my old class mate from that time, Anna, was visiting her mother, Ulla, who…
By an invitation from my old friend Johan Thomas, we went to his boarding house Pensionat Grankullavik, which he acquired some years back. It is in the northern peak of Öland. He picked me up by car with his sons in the back seat.
Today. First counselling with psychologist. In process. Shortblog, it is. Blog grid from last week. Six days. Done today. Now sleep.
A screenshot from the countdown, added with some details! A week from now! Cerefie, who sang on the first memorial services, will return – this time with Arvid on cello, interpreting Laleh with five songs. And some pre-recorded mixes from all my five artist aliases, for an open air event in Lejongropen (“the Lion’s Pit”), Folkparken, Norrköping – next Sunday, at 3pm to 8pm!
Feeling lost. Where to go? What life are we given? Without Mika? I dunno. Resting, in that feeling. Love. Soothe my soul! I can’t stand another second in this pain! Or. Well. I just have to.
Today we had a visit of my mother-in-law Hedwig, with her Eurasier dog Jippii. The grief was very very strong today, when we came together. The heavy dark cloud was very dense, and on our shoulders. Felt really really hard. But good thing to share tears, and somewhere mobilizing the slightest of hope that we will survive this – together. Thank you for a fine day, with shared feelings and a great dinner. Love will push us through. Life just has to go on – as the way the grass is growing on the grave. Strong! Note: This posting…
This cuts through all existential contexts. Professional. Personal. Private. How to place the words on what my life situation is, related to the so-called professional networks? Well, I went on with a project today, that was put on hold this Spring – the profile update project. Of a hunch, I just started to update my LinkedIn profile today. And some hours later, it was there! Here are some mobile screenshots of the full summary of ‘me’, in the professional context. On sick leave, yes. In grief. “Current occupation”. Yes, the hardest work of all, unpaid, 24/7/365 – with the greatest…
We are in the planning to have an Open Air event for those who could not attend the Memorial Services and Bye Bye Ceremony. It will be a publice event, and we had to apply to the local police force for a permit. That was handed over today, and here is the sketching on where and when that went with it as attach! When event final outline and practicalities are settled, and event published, I will write more! Sept 29. Sunday. 3pm to 8pm! Note: This posting done in retrospect, due to a week with fever and cold.
September 17, 2019. After some twists and turns, the order finally was placed! With the signature, I walked in the heavy showers with the paper document. Strange thing with the meeting of the traditional and the contemporary – a paper that I had in my canvas hip bag in its envelope, was found a bit wet after the showers … But managed to get it delivered anyways. Something as fragile as paper in the water, will lead to a stone lasting for decades ahead. Our Family Headstone / Tombstone. Things did not turn out as it should. It was not…
One thing is to be drowned in an endless sea of sorrow. One other is to drown in all things to be done formally with the death of your kid. One third thing is the bureaucracy connected to my health and living situation. Took several hours of full focus today, Finally got the shite together! I’ll spare you the details … As a confirmation of ‘relief’: now the cold I got from my beloved went into full bloom! So. Sleeping it away! Good night!