We’re all humans, with all our imperfections, quirks, fallacies and beauty! ALL of us! We’re different, but we are equal in one dimension.

All living beings carry an absolute value!

So.

It is so immensely unfair that Mika is gone.

The one, LIVING this sentiment! He had no idea about “something different” beyond this.

All were love. All are love. All is love! All else, is just “the dark side”, and nothing he ever experienced in full. He was bathing in an ocean of the infinity of The Love Force all thru his short life ‘here’. And now, he is One with that Force … ‘there’!

But where are we, who are still ‘here’?

Lost.

In between chaos, and temporary, shallow and elusive order.

Stabilize enough to ‘live’, we will. But with a Gaping Void of Everlasting Sorrow always residing, until life ‘here’ ending.

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Two meetings.

One with a seasoned, wise, and strong secondary nurse at the clinic. Plans ahead. Sorrow is not a Disease. Trauma is trauma.

One with my former work therapeutic psychologist, where we now manifested a shift in relation coming to four years in contact – through a fika at a coffee house – after (his) work. He’s now working as a psychologist at another psychiatric clinic than mine. We are friends. Period.

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I am not capable of meeting demands for formal work. When that happens, it happens. The future is yet there to be grasped.

Writing this is a part of the healing process. It will take the time/energy/way it takes. A deadline can not be set.

BUT – MY INTENTION IS CLEAR:

TO GET ‘SOMEWHERE’ AND REACH SOME WORK CAPACITY IN FEBRUARY 2020!

HELP US OUT – OK?

KHTHXBAI4NOW!

G’NITE!